The thought of having to dress up for work every day almost made me change my mind. I love my sweat pants in the winter and my swimsuits in the summer! Wear makeup everyday!?! Oh, that will take getting use to again! Time to ditch the sports bras, tshirts, pony tail holders, and stretchy pants. Hello high heels! Time to shop for grown up clothes!
I plan to help save for Jake's college! Tyler was given a college education thanks to Brian's diligence to stay on budget. It will feel great to offer financial help after all the years the burden was mostly on Brian. I know the gifts I've given to my family are more than any monetary amount, but this too will feel good!
It hasn't been easy accepting that the boys are all but grown now. They don't need me home 24/7. There are no more boo-boos to kiss, pb&js to make, toys to organize, play dates to schedule, taxiing to extracurricular activities, and a million other things. It's almost as if my job is done, the contract is over, and the pink slip is inevitable. You're rewarded for a job well done, and what's left is a box of memory's.
Now, I know they STILL need me. I hope they always will. It's just different now.
Dinner will not be on the table at 5 pm. The clothes that were worn yesterday won't be back in your drawers today. There probably won't be endless pizza rolls in the freezer and powerades in the refrigerator. No time for daily inventory!
But, change is often good, and I will embrace this new opportunity! We will all adjust and find a new normal. I thank God for seeing my heart and hearing my prayers, he knew what decision I should make even before I asked.
I will be joining these wonderful ladies who make a great team!
