Rest in Peace, Our baby girl

If It Should Be

If it should be that I grow weak

And pain should keep me from my sleep

Then you must do what must be done

For this last battle can’t be won.

You will be sad I understand;

But don’t let grief then stay your hand.

For this day more than all the rest

Your love for me must stand the test.

We’ve had so many happy years;

What is to come can hold no fears.

You don’t want me to suffer so

The time has come, please let me go.

Take me where my needs they’ll tend,

But please stay with me ‘til the end

To hold me close and speak to me

Until my eyes no longer see.

I know in time you will agree,

It was a kindness done for me.

Although my tail its last has waved,

From pain and suffering I’m saved.

Please do not grieve that it was you

Who had this painful thing to do.

We’ve been so close, we two, through the years,

Don’t let your heart hold any tears.

 

 

 

 Sweet Mocha, your time had come and we all knew. 
You were weak, frail and had lost interest in the things you loved.  You still licked us, and tried to wag your tail, and I know you would have held on for our sake as long as you could. Dad and I held you tight and whispered to you until your last breath. 
You were one of my children, although I did not give birth to you.  Your sweet face was the first thing I saw every morning and I'm going to miss you my baby girl.  You brought so much joy and happiness into our lives and we were the lucky ones.

 

 

 When tomorrow starts without me

And I'm not there to see

The sun will rise and find your eyes

All filled with tears for me.

I wish so much you wouldn't cry

The way you are today

Remember how I'd lay my head

In your lap that special way.

I know how much you loved me

As much as I loved you

And each time that you think of me

I know you'll miss me too

When tomorrow starts without me

Please try to understand

That an angel came and called my name

And touched me with her hand.

She said my place was ready

In heaven far above

And that I'd have to leave behind

All those I dearly love.

As I turned to heal away

A tear fell from my eye

For all my life I never thought

That I would have to die.

I had so much to live for

So many 'sits' and 'stays' to do

I seems almost impossible

That I was leaving you.

I thought about our lives together

I know you must be sad

I thought of all the love we shared

All the fun we had.

Remember how I'd nudge your hand

And poke you with my nose?

If only I could relive yesterday

For moments just like those.

I'd wag my tail and kiss you

Just so I could see you smile

One day we'll do it all again

Just wait a little while.

So when tomorrow starts without me

Don't think we're far apart

For every time you think of me

I'm right there in your heart.

 

Mocha
07/25/01 ~ 11/28/12

 

 

 

Make your wishes known! Do you want to be an organ donor?

Are you an organ donor? 

Make your wishes known to your family and friends. Don't leave that decision to them to have to make when their world has just been turned upside down. 

My brothers and I were asked to make that decision 10 years ago when our Mother was declared brain dead. A very tough decision to make. We did decide to donate her organs, but I've struggled with that decision every day for the last 10 years. To me, she was still breathing, although with the aid of a respirator, when they took her away to procure her organs. I think it would have been easier to unplug the machines and be with her when she took her final breath.  My brain says we made the right decision, but my heart often struggles with that decision. Would, by some miracle, she have continued to breathe and somehow pull through?  Although I know by donating her organs, others were given a second chance at life, it still did not make my loss any easier.  Grieving the loss is unbearable enough, without questioning your decisions....so I plead, make that decision for yourself!  It's easy, tell your family your wishes.  You can also choose whether to be a donor or not on your driver's license, or in your will.  It's easy, a much easier thing to do than your loved one will have to do when faced with that decision.

My Mom was only 59, she had a cranial aneurysm, I still miss her like it was yesterday. Sad and still heartbroken.

What brought up this topic on my blog?  Brian wanted us to watch this movie tonite called The Fifth Quarter, based on a true story.  I didn't make it through the movie after the family were faced with their son being declared brain dead and the decision to donate his organs.  You can read their story here.  http://www.lukeabbate5thquarter.org/

Make your wishes known!  http://www.donatelife.net/

I love and miss you Mom!  Always.

A truly thankful Thanksgiving!

This Thanksgiving has to be one of the best ever as I received news this morning that my breast biopsy was benign!  Praising God from whom all blessings flow!!  I truly was worried that I was going to have breast cancer.  I had several strikes against me, synthetic hormones for 10+ years and family history.  I am still at a higher risk, but right now all that matters are the words spoken to me this morning; "You don't have cancer"!

I haven't slept since Saturday, and now, although happy, I'm exhausted!  I think I might just go into hibernation soon!  My brother is here from VA (so excited to spend this Thanksgiving with him!), and I have a ton to do, plus my "beloved" black Friday shopping with my sister-in-law, so the nap may have to wait!!

I wish my brother, Wade, who's in Afghanistan could be with us, I know he'll be here in spirit, and God knows we'll eat enough for him as well!!  I hate my nephews and niece didn't get to come spend this week with us due to my procedure, but we'll make up for that!

Even with my joy, I am sad for my best friend back home, Lisa.  She has thyroid cancer and had surgery on Monday to remove her thyroid.  I felt so bad calling her today to share my good news, but I know she was relieved for me.  I pray God will heal her and comfort her during this time.  I wish I could be there for her.  I love you Lisa.

Thank you God, for another Thanksgiving with my husband and children and I pray there will be many, many more to come. 

Thank you God, for loving me, even when I'm unlovable and for your promise of an everlasting life with you in Heaven.

Think Pink

October is breast cancer awareness month.  I always have my annual mammogram in November.  So, this November, just like all the previous years since I was 35, I had my annual screening mammogram.  I knew by the way the technician was acting that I was soon to be called back for more tests.  A week went by and I thought it was smooth sailing...no phone calls.  But, just the next day, they called and wanted me back for more films and possibly an ultrasound.  I've been called back several times over the years, but what they saw always proved to be just fluid filled cysts.  This time was different.  After 20 more films, I waited for them to say, "okay, off to ultrasound you go", but they didn't.  The nurse came in the waiting room and said, "Mrs. Rhone, you can get dressed now, and meet me in the hallway".  Whew, no ultrasound this year!  I dressed, eager to get out of there, waited in the hallway for my nurse who would say, "you're good, see you in a year".  She finally appeared, but instead of what I was expecting to hear, she said "the doctor would like to meet with you".  What?  Well, okay.  I was led into a small office and asked to wait.  The doctor came in and said, "You need to have a biopsy as soon as possible".  Uh, okay, tell me more.  The area of concern was a cluster of what resembled calcifications, close to the chest wall.  He went on to explain that calcifications don't typically present themselves in clusters.  This was why they wanted to biopsy the area.  I was asked to watch a film on the biopsy procedure.  Now I wait, a whole week to have the procedure done.

It's human nature to worry.  I've really tried not too, but who wouldn't?  I know that whatever happens, God is in control.  I can't change what the outcome will be, but I can pray that it will be good.  So now we wait....

Feeling a little Crafty!

I recently had the opportunity to make something for one of my friend's daughter for her new room.  I had so much fun doing it, I kept making more! 

 

 

 

I've never been much of a crafty person.  I don't like to sew, knit, crochet, or any of those fun things, so since I've found something I enjoy I'll keep making names until there are no more names to make!  HA, Ha, ha!!

A Thankful Heart

God has two dwellings, one in Heaven,

the other in a meek and thankful heart!

The month of November always brings a time when we think about what it is that we are thankful for in our lives.  I've given this much thought lately, and I truly am thankful for many things in my life. 

First of all, I am thankful that I am a child of God, and that he loves me, even when I am unlovable.  I am thankful for his promise that we will live an eternal life with him in Heaven.  I am thankful that I will again one day be reunited with my Mother, Grandparents, and all of my other loved ones who have passed before me.

I am thankful for my husband of 22 + years.  I am thankful that he has been a positive role model in our children's lives.  I am thankful that he works hard to provide for his family.  I am thankful that God chose him for me!

I am thankful for my children.  God has blessed me with two wonderful boys who have made my life complete.  All I ever really wanted to me was a Mother and a Wife.  I am thankful that I can say my greatest accomplishments call me Mom.

I am thankful for my country.  A country where we are free to choose our God, our jobs, our future, and so many other things.  I am thankful for the men and women who have served and are still serving in our military to ensure our freedom.

I am thankful for my extended family, which includes three brothers, their families, aunts, uncles, cousins, and those I consider family who aren't related.

I am thankful for my friends.  Friends are family, the family you choose to be in your life.  This includes my coworkers whom I've grown to love.

I am thankful for our health.  Thankful that we are not battling a terminal illness or incurable disease.  I must remind myself of this next time I am not feeling well with a migraine, bladder flare up or allergies.

I am thankful for our finances.  Thankful that we have everything we need.  Thankful that my children have never had to go to bed hungry or want for a new pair of shoes. 

I am thankful for my home.  Thankful for a home full of nice things, full of memories, and full of love.  Love is what makes a home!

I am thankful for all of God's beauty that we so often take for granted.  Thankful for the rain, sun, trees, grass, and flowers.  Thankful for a world full of beautiful animals.  Thankful for my precious Mocha, my beloved lab of 11 years.

I am thankful that God gave us a memory.  A part of our brain to store valuable moments.  I am so thankful that I can remember my Mom and Grandparents and all the wonderful times we shared.

I am also thankful for technology allowing us ways to communicate in a much more efficient way than prior years.  Thankful that I can stay in touch with family and friends with the click of a button.

There are so many things I am thankful for!  I love the saying, "What if God only gave you the things you thanked him for yesterday?"

What are you thankful for?

O give thanks to the LORD, for He is good;

For His loving kindness is everlasting.1 Chronicles 16:34